What I think about, I bring about.
The thought of success will foster success.
The thought of love will foster love.
The thought of security will foster security.
What am I thinking about today?

*Rita Davenport


Last week didn't go exactly as planned. I only made it to the gym once. Although I did run 3 miles last week and I bench pressed 95lbs (plus the bar) for six reps on Thursday. I'm five pounds away from my goal on the year! It looks like I need a new goal for that one.

Food? Well it started good. Then got a little worse and then went BAD! I still react to stress by eating. Things have been stressful here at work and I handled it all wrong! Let's just say that a pint of Ben and Jerry's for lunch wasn't really on the plan.

The result? As of today I'm 207.7!

So, I've got two choices here. I keep doing what I'm doing. I can fall apart at every opportunity and continue to let myself down, or I can take a stand.

I took a stand. Last night I not only packed my gym bag but I put it in the car before I went to bed. I also planned all my meals. I started a spreadsheet for my meals and have added a section for 'notes and appointments' so I can plan around my various meetings etc.

Today's meals:

Breakfast: 1 Egg/2 Egg Whites and Toast
2nd breakfast: FF Plain Yogurt and protein Powder
Lunch: Spinach Salad
Afternoon Snack: Celery/Peanut Butter and cheese stick
Dinner: Chicken/Pasta/Veggies
Dessert: Ricotta Cheese and 'flavoring' (either lemon or vanilla)

I've also set a little 'rule' for myself... I'm going to give up chocolate for a bit. It's really a 'hot spot' for me and if there's one thing that I'll binge on it's chocolate. The Thin Commandments talks about 'boxing out' foods that you have issues with. And that seems to be 'it' for me. I'll even OD on 'healthy' foods if they have chocoa in them. I'm guessing that I can cut a LOT of calories out of my day just by not even STARTING.

So, for the rest of March - no chocolate. Not even on my free day.

And onto the exercise :)

My planning last night paid off! There was no stopping us when the alarm went off at 4:00AM. We both jumped out of bed and hit the floor running. I had set out my breakfast stuff so I was able to fix my eggs and toast before we left. Then, because my stuff was already in the car, we just had to... LEAVE!

One other thing I noticed over the past few weeks was that when we planned to run on a weekend - it never happened. So I changed out workout schedule to run on Monday, Wednesday and Friday instead of Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday - that meant we needed to get a good start on our workout this morning to get our run in and have time to lift weights. And.. we managed!

After running 1.75 miles we hit the weights. It was shoulders and Tris today.

Standing Dumbbell Press: 30 x 6/30 x 6/30 x 6
Barbell Military Press(Plus Bar): 30 x 6/30 x 6
Lat Raise: 20 x 6 / 20 x 6
Tri Pushdowns: 90 x 6 / 100 x 6 / 105 x 6
Lying Tri Extensions (barbell): 30 x 6 / 35 x 6 (waaaay too light still)
Seated Tri Extensions: 20 x 6 (Single Arm) / 40 x 6 (both arms)

And that was that. I tried to take it easy on my shoulders since last time I worked them I cranked something BADLY. I couldn't turn my neck for two days and ended up going and getting accupressure to take care of it. I was REALLY careful this time and everything seems to be just fine today.

I AM however still fighting issues with my hip. I've had one accupressure session on it and it did help. I'm stretching it A LOT and am going back for another treatment this weekend. Hopefully I'll be pain free in that area before the miles start racking up for the bay to breakers. When my hip's manageable he's going to start work on my planter faciitis. Between the treatments and my planned weight loss I should be feeling a LOT better real soon.

So that's it. I wish I could say I feel excited... But I'm not really. It's hard for me to get excited about future success when I've let myself down so many times. But I'm AM determined. I've written my current weight on the inside of my left hand so I see it throughout the day.

So that's what I'm going to do... I have a favor to ask of all of you. I should be updaing you all tomorrow... If I haven't by the end of the day - send me a message and bug me for an update. When I'm consistent here - I'm consistent in my diet and exercise because I HATE typing up bad updates.

Can anyone guess that I am SOooooo ready for spring?

I just wanted to get in here and confirm that I am going to be ON this week.

Food is planned for the day - no cookies are going to 'win' me.

I also got back on a thermogenic - we'll see if that can 'just start' anything.

No gym this morning. Too many issues with the weather (we've been flooding here again). And stayed up WAY too late last night - but I think we're going to have a great week none the less.

Have a great day everyone and I have a goal to update several times this week. It keeps me honest.

Hey all!

I'm getting better and better as the days go on.

Fiance has honored his commitment to run with me and we've had two training days this week where we ran together - yay!

I also got legs, back and chest in this week so things are going good.

Highlight so far this week?

I bench pressed 90 lbs + the bar this morning! (x6) I wanted to stand up and dance around the gym when I was through! (that's 135 lbs total or 61 kgs for those of you on the metric system) I can bench press more then my goal weight! whoop. It's also cool to load up the BIG 45lb plates on the bar...

If I could get my eating to match up with the gym stuff I would be doing well. I've really been struggling - binging on cookies and the like. Not a good pattern. Every day I wake up and tell myself TODAY I'm going to succeed and every day when it comes time to make that 'hard choice' I fail.

I know what I need - I'm just fighting it. I need to plan my meals for the day befor hand - then there's no choice to be made at a week moment. The choice would already be made.

Now that I've said it - I just need to do it.

This is the year of my success - it's time to start living it.